A lot of times in my recent past I would look at God something like this.

Sad, but true.

I was so skeptical if something I wanted or thought He wanted for me wasn’t going my way.  I think that is part of the reason that I have been so scared to make this Costa Rica trip happen this whole past year.  I was thinking that, like I said before, that I needed to present it in a “perfect” way and if I didn’t have “x” amount of people come with me I was a failure.

That is TOTALLY against everything I believe though…and I was 100% wrong.

How many times have I told myself this…”you never know unless you try, Kelly”…

And something I am learning and FINALLY applying these days…”do not have little faith.” Because “Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you, Kelly”

Over and over in my head I kept hearing:

“SO just ask!  And watch Me move, or not move, but know that you have asked…that is all you can do…and that I am so proud of you for going in my name”

Since asking…some of you have answered.  It has nothing to do with me…and the fear that I had was always because I totally it was about me for too long.  When I realized that I am just the messenger all my fears have since gone away.  I am anxious because I am excited, but I am not at all fearful.  This is a trip merely to serve.  I cannot wait to answer the call of going and loving on these people and this kiddos and seeing the work of God through these families.  I am excited to help out however we can and gain a vision for future endeavors.

There are a handful of us going.  It has been so incredible to see the interest in so many of you.  I am so encouraged by that and cannot wait to extend the offer again next year.  The AWESOME thing about my job is all the totally different and random people I get to meet.  Joe and I talk all the time about how we wish we could get all of these families in the same place so they can all know eachother, because they all would love eachother just as much as we do.

The response has been such an encouragement to my faith.  Makeup artists, past clients, long time friends, newer friends, wedding planners, doctors, lawyers, teachers…all people that are excited to go and serve.  Oh how I wish the timing would have worked out better this time around.  But here’s to the future.

Thank you to the awesome 4 of you who have answered God’s call.  I am now praying blessings on your sweet lives for your awesome sacrifices that weekend.  I am so stinking excited to get to travel with you and come back and share it all with those around us.  I’ll keep YOU ALL who read the blog in the loop with the trip and all the amazing blessings from it.  I so hope it is laid upon your hearts to come with us next time!

Please keep our team in your prayers.  Safety, doors opening, being able to witness awesomeness and be so encouraged and refreshed by it all.

Happy weekend all!