I’m BAAAACK!!!  Finally.  I feel like life is finally back under “control” if that is something that my life ever is.

This past month has been psycho, to say the least…except not really psycho for me…but for Joe.  That man is my hero.

After 4 out of 5 weekends of me being totally out of the state for like 4-5 days at a time…Joe is now my hero.  I am so thankful for that man I cannot even begin to describe it.  It’s my weakness…communication.  I do not even do explaining my thanks all that well to him…so I write…for some reason it seems to be a way I can get it all out.

There is no way I can describe how hard that man works.  He has a full time FCA job that he does well, as well as sacrifices so amazingly for the love and needs of his family.  He has given up so much to become the AMAZING father and husband that he is.  No, he is not perfect, but I sure am thankful for his love of the Lord and the knowledge of things eternal.  He gives up getting to do so much that he wants to do for his son’s soccer games, taking them to school and being able to spend just as much time with them as I do pretty much throughout the weeks.  It is the most unique situation, and one that I would not give up in a second for anything more than what we have…in fact I would take less in order to keep the time that we get with Joe.  He has also given up so much for me.  Even a career (coaching) that I know he would like to pursue again someday and be AMAZING at in order to not uproot our family all too often.  Up through us getting married, even having our Jake he always asked me…”what are you passionate about??”  It was something I so frustratingly could not answer.  I would watch as Joe had a job (FCA) that he loved and got to impact so many through and would get so jealous.  After having Jake we both knew that we wanted me to be able to stay home with our kids.  And it was during that time of reflection and some key friends I was able to find photography…and I LOVED it.  Here’s the thing…I love photography…but it is not my passion.  I just realized this…my passion is actually getting to be a light to my newly engaged couples and be there through such an amazingly awesome time in their lives…it’s just a perk that I love to take their photos too.  It’s kind of crazy how it has come around…and how I came to that revelation.  But I am passionate about marriage….and helping others in their steps towards it.

So…why would I not pour just as much of that into mine??  Isn’t that the best way to minister??  By doing…and showing??

I got to have a lot of time of reflection this month.  It was good for my soul.

I look forward to getting to give Joe some time to do the same…

You might see some minor changes around here…I am learning a lot about myself and my life.  What is important…what I need to sacrifice…how I need to sacrifice…

But, I’m pumped…I’m pumped to get back into the swing of things around here…I’m pumped to take some time to focus more on my family and some hobby’s I have forgotten about.  I’m pumped to continue the ministry that I have been blessed with setting up here, all while making sure I do it for the right reasons and that I do not sacrifice too much of my family to do so.

Just because I am passionate about being a light to other’s marriages….doesn’t mean that is all this life is about.

My life is about Jesus.  And Jesus has called me to work my hardest in all that I do.

First stop…my amazing family…