How does 3 months go by and I never once had a moment to take some time to blog?  How is it even possible?

Lots of amazingly beautiful things have happened since the last weddings and engagements that I blogged that I almost don’t even know where to start again.  Lots has also happened in our family and personal life as well.  So much growth.  So much breakdown and tears have been shed, which has been the factor in so much growth.  It is a really tricky job to be a stay at home working mother…just balance in that is a job in itself…much less the ACTUAL jobs of being a mom and a photographer.

Do I do it well…NO WAY…but there has been so much grace and reliance on the Lord these past three months that I now walk in so much more confidence than I ever have before.  I have failed so much.  But I have picked myself back up and kept going as hard as I possibly could.  I truly believe that is the heart of joy in knowing what I do both inside the home and outside the home is a passion from the Lord.

Has there been some burn out?   Yes.  I will not lie.

Have I sucked as a photographer? Yes.

Have I sucked as a mom?  Yes.

Have I wanted to totally just give up and crawl into my bed?  YES!  100% YES!

But here I am.  Still loving the calling of being a wife to Joe, a mom to three AMAZING sons and a photographer to some of the coolest clients I EVER could have imagined.  I am still blown away that I really and truly love this job so much.

So, in the past three months I have grown up a WHOLE lot.  This never was just a job to me, but all the more all of our clients are like family.  This is so much more than just taking pictures to us.  Intentionality is now the name of the game.  Quality…not quantity.

Taking deep breaths, taking time for who is really important.  Not working for the approval of ANY man, but purely for the approval of the Lord.

This is THE most freeing dedication I have ever made.

And one that I actually live by now and not just say.

So…man would say that the blog has suffered…man would say that my work has suffered…man would say many things that used to stress me out and keep me up late at night.

But the Lord has said…you are enough…you are sufficient…lay it all down at my feet…I would LOVE to take care of it for you.  Work hard for ME and I will direct your path and straighten your ways…your approval is already taken care of…come and rest in ME and I will show you all these things that you could hardly have even imagined…because I am the giver of ALL good things.

Now that…I will rest in.

Amen.